the epitaph

global warmin?
darnd liars!
it's gettin colder
here
for me,
every year
every month n day
without u,
ur warmth..

u showed me this place
when we passed by here;
u said u loved it
n i said that was queer.

we cudnt stop here that day
n years hav passed by since;
i remember em all, every bit,
n how i teased n made u wince.

that was me then, stupid n silly.
but of all the souls who passed by me
none cud see thru my absurd wit
the way u did, i'm proud to agree.

so i've come all the way
to stand here today;
n i wish i cud stay,
here, evry single day.

frndz,
thank u for allur warm wishes
for mi b'day n mi b'day :)

it sure is tough to put it in words
especially, coz i'm a lazibonean

duh, oh.. okie, i forgot to introduce..
laziboneans (a.k.a d lazy bones)
r one of d most endangered species on this planet!
nope, not cos we're hunted or haunted or anythin...
jus cos v r a li'l too lazy to reproduce :P

(well, if u hav heard that line somewer b4,
then, don u get it, dumbo?
me too lazy to ryt, so mi simply copy paste : D )

now then,
for all ye ppl who've mailed / scrappd me / send cards to me..
thnk u for ur warm wishes!
(well.. er .. i hope they r...
er.. u kno.. bein a lazibonean.. i .. havnt opend em yet..
hehe.. sorry.. that's how it is bein a lazibonean, u kno :P

but, hey.. i've kept 1 promise..
i've "posted" d cake :)
do chk d map.. d map of the ilands

nope, it aint mi birthday!
tho that's round d corner as well..
n nope, it aint a typo either!!
not d-day..
jus wot i said it is - b day!

in other wrds, it's mi blogiversary!!!!!

yup! fellas, it's been a year..
since mi devlpd dis habbit
since mi got dis addiction
dis hellave recreation!

so thnk u, all ye ilanders n frnz..
for bearin wit me n bearin me,
all d way, for one whole year!
(n dat wit a big warm bear hug frm me :)

cold mornin
n i stare;
lyk yesterday,
they wer all there.

stood mournin
in despair;
tears all day
n some prayer.


leaves from a life,
of a pain n a strife.
lighted, they burn,
lighten, n turn.

* *

a nu mornin
still stare;
was yesterday,
't was right there.

no mournin
no despair;
but more tears today
for a fulfiled prayer.


a leaf, a nu life,
of hopes so rife.
enlightened, i learn,
n lighten my yearn.

the reflections.
i saw them ther,
the still waters.
cold, like
my heart..
deserted
even the gloomy thoughts
and ther, then
my hand..
touched
the still waters,
it rippled.
o'er that perfect mirror..
it rippled.
the still waters,
touched
my hand..
and ther, then
even the gloomy thoughts
deserted
my heart..
cold, like
the still waters.
i saw them ther,
the reflections.

this is (supposed to be) my last one on pain..
thnx u guys - one n all - for carin n cheerin me on these all-too-blue scribblins omine.. thnx shweets, rajesh, monu, myna, deepa, sur, nisch, lakshmi, ac, ash, amit, udita, wd, ws, divya, vidya, nats, alice, mana, sandy, sadiq, arun, dons, malini, jojo, n rest of the gang and ofcourse the anonymous one -annon- for al the support n care n concern.

i shud also say that writin on pain n hurt or nythin negative is not bad in any way.. like i'd told someone, when u write about such topics as pain, lonliness, darkness n other negative stuff - dont let em take over u.. rather write about 'em all that u want n understand them, their roots n effects and turn what u get out of them into positive energy in dealin with people, situations n relationships. it is then a piece of scribblin becomes complete n meaningful..

these last few lines on pain r dedicated to aradhana, who has "inspired" me to finish off what evolved into a "painful series":

ther's no pain that time can't heal
ther's no pain that u forever shall feel
pain n hurt, they sure are real
but walk thru em, they're no big deal

and so the end, but not of pain..
nor mi blogs..

i'm late, i kno.
i've always been.
always made u wait.
but today u jus din..

the winds still say i'm a coward.
and these xanthous leaves around too;
moments i wish i cud change now.
when all that u said comes back so true..
_

it hurts
to be forgotten,
but even more
when you’re ignored.

its hurts
to tell the truth,
but even more
when no one takes.

it hurts
to let go,
but even more
when you can’t.
_

pain is no pain
when its for a price.
pain is no pain
when it’s a sacrifice.

for a change. on popular demand..
*sigh* i don bliv i'm doin this!!

first, lemme admit how this happened..
well.. i was jus a li'l too lazy to strech mi fingers n press 'ctrl' n 'd' n bookmark the ilands *grins*. n so ended up searchin for the blogs under the friends section n in the comments.

wished the whole thin was like an island group.
n why not?

n so i decided to take up this voyage thru the rediff iland n make a map of the ilands. n mayy be put it up on a web page so that all the lazy bugs like me can make use of it n sail around the rediff ilands..

ok, so i may be a li'l nuts.. but here's the web page:

the map of the rediff ilands

i'll b addin more ilands to the page.
best viewed in ie v6.0 + .. tho i hate it.
mi a firefox freak :)

anyways, happy sailin..

p.s. don expect me, the lazy bug, to map the whole thing,
but ya, i'll b addin as much as i can.. suggestions welcome :)